How is it that something you knew in your heart forever can hurt so much when confirmed by another person.
Example- It took 4 years to get our Autism diagnosis. Mostly because we were to busy surviving to jump through the hoops of testing. Not to mention I am also the mother of two other children. They day that doctor looked at me and said " Mrs. Wilson, we have confirmed that Wesley is indeed on the autism scale" I just cried. I had known this since his first birthday. But for someone else (a professional ) to tell me was like WOW!
Well, here we go again. I know (as does Steven) that Wes has some severe learning diffuculties. However, we have never been sure if they were independant of the autism or if the were a side effect. Well, as we are half way through second grade and have made no academic progress (b/c don't get me wrong, getting in the building is progress).
We had some testing done and on Friday I spoke un-officially with the professional. Well again, "Rachel, he is just so learning disabled in reading, it is so sad!" (I have the realtionship with her where she can say it in that way to me so don't worry about that)
But DANG. why does it have to hurt like that when I already knew.
and now what?
4 comments:
It is so sad. I'm sorry.
You keep on loving him, girl. You are a great Mother and Steven is a great father. Trust ME, I teach children everyday that would kill to have parents that cared enough to even take them to the dr. You are doing a great job and sometimes love is really all you need to get through.
I am praying for you girl and thanks for praying for me too..
How was your surgery? recovery?
Love,
alie
How well I know that feeling! As long as we don't hear it out loud by a true professional, it's easy to push aside in our minds and try to convince ourselves it's just going to get better. When our motherly intuitions are finally validated, it is the opposite of rewarding. I know that broke your heart to hear do definitively. I pray for your peace through God's strength. But, sometimes, for us anyway, situations like this have led the path toward new or different therapy. We've adopted different attitudes and habits that have benefited his progress. I hope that is the case for your family. Call me if you ever just need an ear.
I'm so sorry Rachel.
I've got a project to distract you.
You've been tagged. Go to my blog for directions.
By the way, Wes is so blessed to have a mother like you. He needs you and you are there like you have always been and always will be.
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